Maybe It's Okay...If I'm Not Okay.

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In our testimony meeting at church, a guy from Canada got up and said, "It's okay, to not be okay."

Well dang. That sums up my whole week.
Why do we all respond to the question, "How are you doing?" with the same freaking answer?
We are not all okay and yet everyone I talked to yesterday (who I knew was struggling) gave me the same answer that I have been giving--- "I'm doing well!" "I'm good!"

I'm as guilty as the next person. Someday I hope I can feel that it's okay to not be okay.

Maybe it's ok if I'm not ok
'Cause the One who holds the world is holding onto me
Maybe it's all right if I'm not all right
'Cause the One who holds the stars is holding my whole life

-We Are Messengers, Maybe It's Ok

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